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The First Half of My Life
Episode 21
- Mom, are you ready?- Yes, I'm good.
I'll have to trouble Old Jin to give me a ride today.
- You didn't drive?- I took a cab here yesterday.
Let's go.
My car...
It's nice, just a bit untidy.
Old Jin, how many years have you worked in this department store?
Nearly ten years.
Wow that's a long time.
Yes..my manager also wants to transfer me to other department.
But I feel happy and comfortable working here.
Then how about your future? Do you want to work here forever?
Why do you ask this? Occupational disease?
Trying to understand Old Jin's plan for his future career.
People who want to be togetherneed to get to know each other better.
We're not the same as you people. Why bother planning?
Do you really think you'll stick to selling shoes in this store for the rest of your life?
He Han has specially come to teach you all those skills
not just so that you can sell more shoes.
We all don't think you'll stay and workin this store for more than a year.
I've never thought about that.
I did.
I believe He Han thought about it for you, too.
You are capable, Zijun.
You should make an overall career plan
for your future 5 years, 10 years.
I don't even know what you two are talking about.
Hey, Old Jin.
You're able to take care of Zijun very well in life.
I won't doubt that at all
Ziqun used to live a comfortable life.
But now she doesn't have a high demand for material life.
But she does have career ambitions of her own.
So I hope, you should also set some expectations of yourself.
Yes, yes.
I really meant what I said.
Some time later, I may get transferred out of Shanghai.
Please take care of Zijun.
You can rest assured I'm willing to
do anything for Zijun.
See you.
Old Jin, don't pay attention to what Ms Tang said.
I feel that what she said is very reasonable.
It's fine. It's fine.
Tomorrow lunch, since it's a Saturday, why don't we eat out?
Sure.
Is that okay, Ping'er?
Ping'er has to go to this grandparents' house.
Do you need me to drive you two?
Tomorrow?
I'll fetch you two.
His father will come to fetch him.
Ms. Tang, the boss is looking for you for a meeting.
Which boss?
The big boss, Raphael.
- I'm here!- Hello, President Shen.
Raphael.
I can't wait, so I came down already.
What can't wait?
Can't wait to praise you for suddenly becoming so outstanding and progressive.
There is no end in learning.
Okay already. Stop saying such things to me already.
Everyone knows the reason and of course, I do too.
But what I want to say is I admire this attitude of yours towards romantic relationships.
You can cut it off, bear to let go, and leave.
It is not something that other people can easily do.
Now that He Han has left, only you are the person that I have high hopes for in this company.
In the future, I also need to rely on you.
You overpraised me. I will do my best.
What? Go to Hong Kong for one year, and you're automatically a partner when you return.
You must know that other people are required to do it for at least two years.
No problem. One year in Hong Kong.
Never thought that you will agree that fast.
Do you need me to give you two days more to think about it?
No need. I won't take it back.
Okay.
Bear to let go... Only by letting go can you earn something.
Very beautiful.
President Shen, hello.
- President Shen, hello...- Okay.
I heard that Tang Jing is really leaving this time.
Isn't it because her waiting for He Han all these years ended with nothing, so she chose to just leave?
I heard it was Vivian.
That's possible. She had rumors with He Han before.
But this time, Tang Jing will be leaving,and Luo Ping has already left.
Vivian most likely will be monopolized by Vivian now.
Just serve her well then.
Don't think that because you guys lowered down your voice, none can hear you.
I initially am not interested in these left overs of Tang Jing.
If the superiors will insist that I take them,
I can only try to do this difficult task with the best that I can.
What is it?
You look so serious.
I got news from B&T. Tang Jing will be transferred to Hong Kong.
It might just be empty rumors since no official announcement was released yet.
I think that if you don't want her to leave, immediately go try to stop her.
Once it is announced, it will be too late already.
This mobilization of employees internally by B&T,
how can we at Chen Xing interfere?
This isn't a problem with B&T and Chen Xing.
It is a problem with you and Tang Jing.
Tang Jing is not a person who acts impulsively.
Since she made this decision,
I think she already thought about it well.
I feel that Tang Jing should at least tell you about it.
She knows that by doing this, you will be greatly affected.
I already left B&T for so long. How can it affect me?
You must admit that no matter if Tang Jing is your enemy or team mate,
she is one of the reason that you never lost interest
in idling around different consultation projects for so many years.
Only her can let you feel how important yourself is. There is competitiveness and surprise.
Other than her, everyone else are just part of your daily work routine and people that you can leave after you earned the money.
Fine, I'll go now.
Wait a minute.
No matter if it's true or not, you must make preparations.
So that no time would get delayed when B&T sent a new person
to handle Carmen's case once Tang Jing leaves.
Because each project manager has different work habits,
we just need to achieve our goal.
[ Tang Jing ]
Fine already. I am not that particular.
I usually just randomly eat a few mouthful while in the storage room every day during lunch.
I heard that you used to live like a young madam at home before.
Don't know if that's true or not.
I didn't dare to ask you for I was afraid that you don't want to be asked about it.
What young madam? You must have watched too much TV series.
Just a housewife raising one's child at home. What good is there to talk about it?
Your life at least were spent quite well.
Having things go your way and was satisfied with your life.
No matter how much successful and satisfied one's life is, it will still have an aspect of having numerous problems.
Just like Ms. Tang. Just like me.
Although my days prior to the divorce were indeed better,
I still feel that my days now are more at ease.
Knowing how much I earn everyday, knowing what I can do.
Knowing what I can do tomorrow and what I can earn.
Before, I still had a nanny taking care of my child. But now, I have to fetch and send him from school everyday on my own.
It is indeed a bit harder, but I am able to perceive how the child's mood changes
and see the child grow up day by day. Isn't that very meaningful?
Thank you. Thank you.
It indeed can be said like that.
But in life, it is easier to live from having no money to having one.
But to live from having money to not having one, that's not easy to do anymore.
I had always been afraid.
I feel that I already gave it my all
but still worried that you will look down on me.
You're doing it again. What looking down on you?
What right do I have to look down on others? It's more like I'm afraid that others will look down on me.
Not knowing to do this and that...
Who dared to look down on you? You are our star employee for this month.
Come, taste this.
I'll just answer a call.
Hello, Ziqun, what is it?
Sister, mom found out about this.
She now went home to find Bai Guang. They surely will get in a fight.
Don't rush. I'll go to your house right now. Okay.
- Eat some before leaving.- No, I...
My mother and my younger sister's husband have some conflict.
I'll just go back and resolve them. You just take your time and eat.
So sorry.
You're still sleeping!
How dare you sleep now?
Are you human? You are a household pet...
Your son has already been in hospital for a few days.
Did you know that?
Who's in hospital?
Your son! He's been in hospital for a few days
Are you his father?
How did he get sick? Didn't Ziqun leave with him?
Ziqun already left for a few days,but you didn't even bother to ask about her.
Do you treat her as your wife?
She wanted to leave and seek a divorce.
Why didn't you stop her instead?
If she was dead or alive, would you even want to know?
She wanted leave herself and find other men.
She said other men are all better compared to me.
What do you want me to do?
Do you want me to kneel and beg her not to leave?
If you were more like a man, would she go and look for other men?
You...I'm saying to you, this is your problem. Do you realise that?
Right now, all I wish is for Ziqun to find another man.
All he needs is a head and two legs he would be better than you!
Look at you now
your wife left, and you can't survive.
What right have you got to speak to me like this?
If elders set a bad example, the young are likely to follow suit.
Just look at yourself. So old and would even cheat an old man.
I... you...
How dare you speak like this?Do you know who you are speaking to?
- You are speaking to your elder.- Enough!
No wonder your daughter follows your example. You're never content with what you have.
Who's not content? Ziqun has let you take all she has. All that's left is selling her blood.
I've already helped you to repay your debts many times
Did you know that?
I'm begging you to let me pay then.
Where are you going?
Where are you going to? Leave me alone.
You--
- Let me go.- Hey, hey.
Alright...calm down, both of you!
Bai Guang, Ziqun has been at the hospital with your child for the past two nights and days
If you truly consider them your wife and child, then come with me to hospital and let her have a rest.
Let her come home to wash up and have some rest ok?
I am going there now.
That's right..going to hospital.
I'm going to let Ziqun herself tell him clearly
- that she wants to divorce him. - Go lightly.
I'm telling you...they must divorce.
- Makes me furious.- Let's sign the papers right now.
This Bai Guang isn't even a thing.
I'm so angry!
Our child is sick. Why didn't you let me know?
Where did you bring him for him to fall sick?
I'm asking you a question.
I'm tired. I don't want to talk to you.
Then you go home first, I'll stay here with our son.
I don't have a home.
After a fight, you left and
made our son sick. Have you had enough?
Enough. I've had enough.
Go and have a rest. I don't care where you go to find rest, ok?
- Let go.- You.- Let go of me.
Bai Guang what are you doing? Let go of her.
Lower your voice.
Why are you grabbing Ziqun then?
Bring Ziqun back home. I'll stay here to look after our son.
Jun Jun..you stay here.
Bai Guang, Ziqun both of you step outside.
I have something to say to both of you.
Bai Guang, I'm telling you on Ziqun's behalf
your marriage relationship has ended from today.
When your son is discharged from hospital, both of you will start the divorce process.
Why should you tell me to end my marriage with Ziqun?
Ziqun, tell him that you said to me that you wanted to get divorced.
She says she wants a divorce every week.
Mum, why don't you go inside first?I need to be alone with him.
If you start to fight, then things get confused.
If you fight, just call me.
I've thought this through
let's get divorced.
Is this because you saw how easy it was for your sister to get divorced?
Did it move you? You want to learn from your sister. But you are not Luo Zijun!
That's right...I'm not her.
But after the divorce even if it's difficult and tiring I will not regret it at all.
Do you know that saying these things at the hospital makes no sense.
Wait until our son gets discharged and we reach home, we can discuss this slowly ok?
I'm not saying this in anger. Our son and I will never go home.
If you don't go home, where would you go?
Wherever we go, it definitely won't be with you.
What kind of joke is this?
Do I look like I'm joking?
Do I look like it's funny right now?
I'm not divorcing.
Bai Guang, I beg of you to consider, ok.
- I beg of you to let me go ok?- No way.
I will never divorce you. We still have a son. How can we get divorced?
With you as this type of father, how good can this be for our son?
Ok. I won't speak further.
I'm telling you now
I'm leaving this marriage no matter what you say.
Ziqun...Ziqun.
- Ziqun, please listen to me. - What are you doing?
I will change for the better.
I promise you.
If only both of you will return home, I will listen to you.
Whatever you say, we will be good. Ziqun.
Let's have a new beginning. We will be even better
okay? Ziqun?
Let go of me. You will never ever change.
Ziqun. That Bai Guang
will do anything to get back together.
You have to harden your heart and not be swayed ok?
You can all go home. I can look after my son on my own.
I just asked the doctor who said he can be discharged tomorrow.
Why don't you come over and stay with me?
[ OUTPATIENT ]
It's not been easy, but we got Ziqun to finally understand.
You better look after her and not let Bai Guang persuade her to return to him.
- Zijun. - Who's that?
Old Jin
why are you here?
I saw there was nothing to do at the shop,
so I thought I would wait at the hospital entrance to pick you up.
Old Jin, is this Old Jin?
Old Jin, this is my mother.
Hi mother.
Get in the car. Let's get in the car.
- This is my car.- Ok.
This Old Jin isn't that old.
- I'll sit in front.- Sit, just sit.
I will sit in front...
Ok..ok.
- Then you have to put on the seat belt.- Ok.
Right. Put on the seat belt.
Ok.
Old Jin,
You know about Zijun's situation.
I do know.
How old are you?
I'm older than Zijun by a few years.
A few years?
That's right. People have said that I already looked old when I was in my twenties.
People call you Old Jin, and it makes you sound old.
Do you have children?
No...no children.
I heard that you live near Jun Jun,
which suburb is that?
I'm at Yao Jiang Guo Ji.
Which suburb?
Yao Jiang Guo Ji.
That place must be
top grade
two bedroom apartment?
Three bedroom apartment.
Three bedroom apartment. That's good.
Did you buy it yourself or...
Some years ago, I dabbled in shares
made some money and bought a home.
Although the share price dropped,
but I made money with the house. It's very "difficult".
This Old Jin is ok,
never thought you were the sort to be good in shares.
It's not that. I don't spend much money as a single person.
With the savings, I just invested in shares.
That's good. Good.
Your car is a bit old.
It's mainly because... it's not easy to get a license.
I know. I'm just having a chat with Old Jin.
- Nothing at all.- Right.
Aunty, I'm leaving now.
Bye.
In my opinion, Old Jin has passed the test.
Just now in the car, it felt like you were investigating him
asking so many questions, I felt very embarrassed.
Why should you feel embarrassed? We have every right to ask.
If you two are dating and considering marriage, you have to ask these questions.
With you beating around the bush, it's much better to be direct and straightforward like me.
This way it's more frank.
Fine, fine, fine, you always have a reason.
You really out-talk me more and more.
Unless God decides to give you someone like He Han.
Otherwise you can disregard all others.
I feel that Old Jin doesn't present brilliantly
but actually if you look under the surface
he's quite high quality.
What are you smiling about?
To say it nicely, I feel he is ok in all aspects.
But the crucial point is that he treats you well.
You've always said I'm focused on money, but in this aspect I'm very clear.
Do you understand what I'm trying to say?
Ok. I'm going now.
Aren't you coming upstairs to eat otherwise why did you get in the car with me?
Who said I was having a meal with you?
Uncle Cui has invited me for a dance and this evening I am going for dinner with my group of friends.
Think about it. Why would I get in the car with you?
Your brain needs a wash!
Oh right..will you be picking up Ping'er later?
Be careful on the roads.
You take care of yourself.
My shoes are not comfortable. I'm leaving now.
Be careful.
Has Ping'er slept yet?
I'm at home. Packing my clothes.
I only need to bring summer clothes to Hong Kong.
You've decided to go?
That's right.
When do you leave?
Next week.
So fast?
You're coming back several times over this period?
How fast or slow a year goes is determined by how you're living.
My clothes and shoes here,
you can use these anytime if you need to. You have the key anyway.
You can bring Ping'er over to live here too.
You are my friend
Right now I'm feeling very confused and edgy, I don't know what I ought to say or do now.
Whatever I do, can you not criticise me.
All I need is an encouraging word or two.
Comfort and understanding iswhat we give when we don't care about you.
I am saying this as I have considered your best interestsand how you are going to survive in the future.
My job is to help people solve their problems.
The more difficult the problem,
the more critical the situation, the more you need to start at the earliest moment.
Under ruthless conditions cut off all means of retreat.
No matter how much you earn, what matters is your dignity.
No matter what the situation, the most crucial is your performance.
Stand firm. Everything will be okay.
No matter the difficulties in the past or present,
if I didn't have you, I wouldn't have survived.
What about He Han? Does he know?
He should know by now...
What can I say? He's so proud and wouldn't say much.
You should probably slow down a little.
Your phone.
Help me to pick it up. No matter who it is, tell them I'm not free.
[ Luo Zijun ]
Why are you picking up this call? Where's He Han?
Has he drunk too much?
Does he know about Tang Jing's situation?
If he knows, why is he so quiet?
When he found out Tang Jing was going to Hong Kong,he started drinking heavily these two days.
He never drank so much in the past.
There's nothing much to say. No worries.
Who is it?
Zijun is asking about you.
I heard everything you said to her.
Do drink less.
Would you like more ice?
Thanks.
Tang Jing suddenly said she wanted to go.
I never thought this would happen,
even though I've always known if I didn't leave one day she would.
Between the both of us
this will be considered a conclusion.
I don't understand your relationship.
You say Tang Jing loves you,
the whole world knows about thisunless you don't love her.
But if this were the case, all these years, would you dare give her such a false appearance?
Speaking of which, she could be considered my student and with me as her teacher.
When she was an intern,
together with five to six others,she had no idea of what was going on.
But from that time, I started liking her.
I started teaching her little by little.
I never thought about where I got such patience.
She surpassed my expectations with her intelligence and ambition.
But I don't know if I should be happy or concerned
because I discovered
I can no longer guide her.
Two people evenly matched in their careers won't necessarily be good together.
Compared to me, you married young and will be clearer than I am on marriage.
Marriage is a very definite commitment.
If I married Tang Jing,
there would definitely be one personwho gives more in the relationship, more time.
Who would it be? Me or Tang Jing?
If we wanted to have a child, then Tang Jing would have togive up even more time,
giving birth to the child, giving even more time and effort in bringing up the child,
being with the child until he's grown up. How should we divide it?
Everyone will definitely say... Of course it should be Tang Jing.
But I tell you
even if she is of this opinion,
I neither have the patience nor want to.
Because you don't see it.
I do see she has to fight with all her might on this road.
You all don't know
how hard she had to work in order to achieve what she has presently.
I know she wants you to see that in whatever she does, it is effortless.
I never realised you had given it so much thought.
She's more like a work of art to me.
You know, I've done numerous cases
but among all of these
they cannot be counted as the most satisfying work of art.
Tang Jing is my most satisfying work of art.
Don't you think I love her?
There are a lot of smart, virtuous young women. Tang Jing's just one of them.
But I hope she is capable of getting even better,
more perfect.
I understand what you mean.
Are you free tonight for dinner?
Give this month's department store star employee a chance
to express my thanks.
Okay.
Come and have dinner with us after work.
It's Old Jin's birthday today.
Di Di's here. Did we say you were to wait for me to pick you all up?
How did you suddenly arrive?
- I came out a bit earlier.- Quick.
Let him come down. Big Brother is here. Would you like a biscuit?
Come. Come and play with big brother.
It's fine.
You threw the biscuit?
Let's play with big brother. Let's go.
Shall we play a game?
- You see, you see.- Come home with me.
- Who's inside...- Ziqun.
Ziqun.
Ziqun, come home with me.
Why are you so noisy? Can you let others have a rest?
What do I do?
Sit down and eat, that's what you do.
Let him shout all he wants
- until he runs out of energy, then I will go down and talk to him - Ziqun, come home with me,
come home with me.
Eat.
Ziqun, come home with me.
Luo Ziqun, come home with me.
Give me back my child.
Ziqun, come home with me.
Luo Ziqun, come out now.
Zijun, I'm downstairs. Would you like me to go upstairs to pick you up?
Why don't I come up to pick you up?
Ok. I'll wait downstairs. Take your time.
Take your time. Slowly.
Ok, ok.
Do you know Luo Zijun?
Are you Old Jin?
Yes I am. Who are you?
I'm her brother-in-law.
You are Bai Guang?
You know her family? Do you know what her apartment number is?
I don't know.
When Luo Zijun mentioned me, it must not be complimentary.
She said your child was in hospital.
What are you doing here? Why aren't you with your child?
I'm here because...
Luo Zijun advised my wife to divorce me.
My wife and child are now living in her home.
If Luo Zijun doesn't allow them to see me, what can I do?
I think she has her own reasons for doing this.
Yes she does have a reason.
There is only one reason. It's because I'm poor.
Since I started dating my wife, Ziqun,
Luo Zijun and her mother disliked me.
They tried to break us up everyday.
Well, compared with Luo Zijun's ex-husband, I am poor.
He's a senior manager at a foreign enterprise.
At hotels he stays on the administrative floor, on planes he sits in business class. His yearly salary is a million yuan.
How many people can compare with that?
You're saying that before, Zijun...
her husband was like that?
You didn't know?
Luo Zijn was dumped by her husband. They divorced. That's how she came to be like this.
Before, who didn't she look down on?
She was totally arrogant towards her housekeeper.
She was a female version of a tyrant king!
I've heard... you want to marry Luo Zijun.
I'm just casually asking. Do you have a vehicle?
I do.
A car or a bicycle?
Then I think you should at least trade your car in.
Before, she wouldn't even ride in a BMW.
If you want to hear what I think, look at her attitude to me right now.
That should tell you enough--that she's still that snobbish on the inside.
Bai Guang, what were you just saying again?
Lao Jin, I've told you what kind of person he is.
Don't believe anything he says.
No, no, we didn't say anything.
Ping'er, let's go. We'll wait in the car.
Okay.
Didn't I tell you before?
No matter what you say or do now Ziqun won't want to see you.
Today's Friday. Let her take care of your son for two days.
On Monday, you guys go take care of the divorce formalities.
If you don't divorce, get a lawyer to do it.
I'm not going to waste my breath with you. I want to see my wife!
She doesn't want to see you.
She doesn't want to see me?
I'm telling you I won't get a divorce. Even if you find ten lawyers I won't divorce!
She doesn't want to see me, right?
Then I'll just wait here, I'll wait here until she's willing to see me.
Then go ahead and wait here.
Ziqun! Luo Ziqun!
What do you think? Are you prepared about going to Hong Kong?
How are you doing? Are you ready?
I can set off at any time.
Everything work and personal life related--
everything's arranged?
- Here's coffee.- Thank you.
Rafael, there's something I'd like your help with.
No problem. Being able to help you is my honor.
At my company in Hong Kong, no matter what, I'll end up facing some obstacles.
I'll probably be worn out facing them alone.
So I was thinking about it. Could I bring someone with me?
You can, no problem!
Who are you thinking of taking?
The best choice would be someone who understands companies in Hong Kong.
I ended up only thinking of one person.
Wow, Vivian! You look so pretty today!
You think so?
I understand. Don't worry.
Thank you.
Zijun. I'm already so old.
Isn't celebrating birthdays for kids?
Or would you say that I've really forgotten.
The last time I celebrated my birthday
- seems to be when I was 30.- Really?
Actually celebrating birthdays are just a pretext
to get everyone together to have a good time.
Then, where did you celebrate birthdays before?
Um, Miss Tang, when she comes do this sort of place,
will she think it's not very high class?
It's really nice here!
Besides, Tang Jing isn't the sort of person you think she is.
Eating from street food stalls and eating valuable, rare wild game
is the same to her. The main thing is to eat happily.
- Really?-Don't worry.
Come on over.
Lao Jin, happy birthday!
I only have a cake, I didn't have time to get another present.
Thank you so much, you're too polite.
My present -- this year getting to meet Zijun and getting to meet Miss Tang
is the biggest honor of a gift of my life so far.
Sit, sit.
- There's another seat?- Yes.
Who?
I told you, didn't I?
You didn't tell me.
Is there a point now? By the time I said it you would have already met.
He Han.
Lao Jin, this is He Han.
He's Tang Jing's friend and also my friend.
Hello, I've heard them talk about you.
Hello.
Sit, sit.
Have some tea.
You've already decided to go to Hong Kong?
The tickets are already booked. I'm leaving next week.
He Han, you didn't mention it either.
You made such a hasty decision, you didn't even give yourself any room to change your mind.
For life outside of work, everything in Hong Kong should be already arranged for you.
What He Han's trying to say is, for a person to travel alone to an unknown place,
it's not as easy as you're imagining it.
If any aspect of the planning isn't right, you shouldn't go, right?
The demands I have for my life there can only surpass the conditions I have at B&T.
It won't be lower than my standards.
Then being alone in Hong Kong, won't you miss us?
Hong Kong? It's not the moon.
But we'll miss you!
Me, He Han, we'll miss you.
"In The Pouring Rain" by Ye Linsheng
♫ In the torrential rain, among the busy cars ♫
♫ Why is the image of your face still so clear? ♫
♫ I hold my breath, watching you as you leave ♫
♫ Why do I feel my heart slightly wavering? ♫
♫ When did I start becoming used to your presence? ♫
♫ Your calls always appear at the perfect time ♫
♫ My heart has sold me out ♫
♫ I still have a little hope, that you will come back,searching for me ♫
♫ In the torrential rain, among the busy cars ♫
♫ Why is the image of your face still so clear? ♫
♫ I hold my breath, watching you as you run towards me ♫
♫ My heart is slightly wavering ♫